Raising Royalty

An Update!

2009-12-29T07:16:00.001-08:00

Well Christmas has come and went, and we all had fun! I worked a lot around christmas, which wasn't very fun, but that's what you get when you work in retail! I am looking forward to a few days off this week.

The girls got spoiled (as always) for Christmas this year recieving amoung many other things, lots of clothes, a guitar for Teja and a Littlest Pet Shop adoption centre for Emma. They both recieved a wii from their Memere and Pepere, and that has proved to be hours of entertainment!

Eric and I got engaged on Christmas day too. It was wonderful and he completely surprised me with a ring that I LOVE.

I am officially finished my first trimester of pregnancy, and really happy to be feeling a LOT better. The sickies are mostly gone, just a bout with them once in a while.. and my tummy is strating to grow. I need some more track pants, because nothing else is fitting!

My next Doctors appointment is in about 3 weeks, and I am excited to go. I'm bringing Eric this time so he can hear the baby's heart beat. Our big ultrasound should be not too long after that (within a few weeks) so we're pretty close to the mid-point, and it feels really good!

I've started composing a list of things we need to buy between now and June, and it doesn't really look all that daunting..

So far it includes a Travel system (Car seat and stroller - which I think I've got picked out already), and we need bath time soaps and lotions, and I'd like to start buying diapers since Eric nixxed my cloth diapering idea. (He says he doesn't want to wash poo in the same machine he washed his clothes in lol) I need a new diaper bag, and I already know what i want for that too. But before I buy it, I want to make sure I can't bring the other one back to life. It just needs a good wash. I need some nursing bras too, and some crib sheets. Other then that it's just a lot of washing to get things ready. Once we find out the gender I can pick up a few outfits.. but I am not going to go crazy because I am quite sure the baby will recieve some as gifts aswell, and I already have quite a few in a tote ready to be washed, so we don't need to go crazy. I'd like to get some pink or blue recieving blankets too once we know what this baby will be.

anyway, if you're lucky I will start posting pictures of my expanding tummy at some point. maybe in a few weeks I will start! lol

Hope your Christmas was great too, and all th best in 2010!

Hi.

2009-11-12T09:16:00.000-08:00

Hello, I am still alive, but barely. haha

everyone in our place has been sick, except me, and I have been very busy taking care of them, however, thankfully, everyone is on the mend, because I just got slapped with a massive wave of exhaustion. I yawn continually, and can't seem to get off my ass for anything. I have to keep my stomache not empty, but not too full or i feel like I'm going to puke. ugh!

I can't wait to be out of the first trimester so I HOPEFULLY!! Start to feel better.

It's true what they say about every pregnancy being different, so far this is right in between the other two. For Teja, I puked multiple times daily for almost the whole pregnancy, and for Emma, I think I got sick once. This is right in between the girls.

Not much is going on, I turn 28 next week, and Eric and I are planning to go out for dinner, if my stomache approves of those plans, and then we're going to go get all of the christmas shopping done so that I don't have to worry about it anymore. At least for the girls. They're the most important anyway. And I'm dragging him to Babies-r-Us so we can look at travel systems and see if theres anything that catches our eye.

Some news

2009-11-03T06:15:00.000-08:00

There is going to be a new little heir or heiress to our throne joining us!

Eric and I are completely excited, as are the girls.
We're just about 5 and a half weeks, and have just had an ultrasound and everything looks good. I need a spot to keep people updated, so I guess this is it!

I don't really feel any different yet. I'm bloated and Eric will tell you I'm irritable. I've also discovered that if you mix taco seasoning in sour cream and use it as a dip for tostitos, it's heaven on earth. (Eric doesn't agree) hahaha

We have a lot to do before bambino comes, so thankfully we have months and months to prepare!

This winter we are getting a new kitchen and then the main floor has been completely re-done! It looks awesome too, I can't wait to have it done.

Anyway, that's the news, we're expecting Butterball sometime in late June, and hoping that because I have c-sections that that means we can plan it so Emma doesn't have to share her birthday!

It's been a while..

2009-10-28T09:42:00.000-07:00

Well it's been MONTHS since I updated this thing.

I'm sorry, but we've had a busy summer, and fall hasn't been all that slow either!

The girls have both started school now, and both love it. Eric and I are still working, and I have finished up some paperwork that's been hanging over my head for a long time. That feels good.Theres also other exciting stuff happening, but if I told you now, I would have nothing to write about for months again.

Everything's different yet still the same.

Everyone is very happy, and healthy and growing up so wonderful.

I promise to update this a little more often.

The Haps.

2009-05-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

Wow - what HASN'T happened in the last while?

Teja had her Dance recital, it went good.

Both girls started baseball - they love it.

Teja, Eric and I went to toronto to see a blue jays game - we all had a good time.

The weather's nice! yay!

Here's some pictures. You'll probably have to click to see the whole thing because blogger's dumb. haha

We bought a car!

2009-03-22T06:04:00.001-07:00

Yay!
We are all SO excited, and I can't wait to have this baby in our possesion. lol

We got a good deal, and even the kid's are excited to get it so we can go for a drive. I'm excited to be able to put the car seats in something and *shock* leave them there! LOL

This isn't our car, but its a car like ours.. Roughly the same colour, but our windows are tinted.

I'll take pics of our car when we get it in a few days.. I'll have to, as Eric says its the first car he's had in HIS name, that's ALL his. lol

So what's new?

2009-03-19T09:01:00.000-07:00

Not much around here, well actually a lot, but it all just seems normal.

I have a new job, which i alright. I like that I am bringnig in a little bit of income, and do not have to worry about childcare at all. That's sweet.

Eric's still waiting to hear back from his new job he interviewed for, they said it wouldn't be before next week so keep your fingers crossed.. Mine are a bit cramped right now actually. lol

The girls are excellent, and growing like crazy. We measured them on the wall and they are both about an inch taller then last time we did it.

The bathroom is finally DONE! The closet doors are in and it looks wonderful. Our bedroom is painted, and now we're just waiting for the framing for the closets to go in and then it will be well on its way to completion. Closets, paint, floor, trim and voila!

The girls were very excited to get outside to pay lately, and Mommy was excited to dry some clothes on the line Monday.

We may be getting a puppy, who we are naming Lola. If the people don't back out who are selling her to us. Cross your fingers for that too, because we are all very excited about it.

Not much else really is going on.. we're keeping our eyes out for a good deal on a van, and hoping we can snatch one up soon.. very soon if Eric gets this new job.

Other then that, not much is new. Just thought I'd write a bit of a tidbit because it's been ages. We're just all busy around here being us. It's fun, and great, and wonderful.

Some recents!

2009-02-18T15:32:00.000-08:00

Here's some of our Birthday celebrations with our big 6 year old!!
Randomness from the entire weekend!

Bring on the updates!

2009-02-16T08:50:00.000-08:00

Well, Here I go again!

Happy Family day everyone! yay! I'm still not used to this new holiday, so it's a big "whatever" for me.. And doesn't actually change much in our routine, since Eric is still at work today, and I am home with the girls and just doing normal stuffs.

The house is going great - the bathroom just needs closet doors and it is DONE! The bedroom needs one more coat of plaster and then it can be painted.. then the closets will be built! I am very excited to have closets in the bedrooms, because it will save a lot of storage problems.. and BIG closets at that! yaaaaay!

Teja turned 6 last week, and it was once again a very full weekend of celebration.. Friday night she had a sleepover with her bff Katie, Saturday Grandpa was here and we all went for dinner and then Monday we had other family over for cake and ice cream! She got loads of gifts and loves everything. She got her DS and is in love! And recieved money grom her great-grandparents so she picked out a couple more games for her DS.

Emma is almost all signed up for school, and very excited about it.

we're looking forward to taxes in hopes of paying some more of Eric's bills off. That will be nice! After his are done, it's only my student loan and then we are debt free! yay! We need to buy a car, so I can't wait for that day!

I have to get new glasses.. I've worn glasses since grade 7, but barely ever do, and I'm starting to get some headaches and such, so I really need to get a pair and wear them regularily.. We're doing that in the next little while too. Just hate the cost.

Teja's getting ready for her dance recital in May, and she's excited.. There song is "Old Time Rock'n'Roll" I'm so excited because 1. I love that song, and 2. It's going to be absolutely adorable.

Both girls are going to sign up for baseball (Eric had no influence in this decision at all *rolls her eyes*) in the summer, they have to be 4, and Emma will be 4 in June, so we're hoping they'll let her sign up. They're looking forward to playing, and to Saturday afternoons with Eric watching baseball games. haha "Red Sox are stinky" never gets old in his world.

Valentines day was nice! Eric surprised me with a necklace that is gooooorgeous! I love it! We had an alright night too, nothing fancy, but it was good. The girls loved the little chocolate bouquets we bought for them, especially Teja, who is just born to be a bonafide girly girl.. Emma just wanted the chocolate. haha

Anyway, I'll try to put up a couple of pictures from Teja's birthday soon, I just never seem to find the time to get on this computer much anymore, which is a-ok with me really, but sucks for anyone who wants to read anything about my boring life. lol

Man, I suck.

2009-01-07T10:57:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry i haven't updated this thing in forever!!

Well, my excuse is pure busyness.

Christmas went well.. Teja and Emma got spoiled rotten, as per usual. lol Eric's Momma Jocelyn, and her bf Steve came down to stay with us for a few days, and that was nice! It was really nice not having to travel for the season, and still have family stuff going on. The girls loved their little dog Brutus, and Brutus loved my front window. lol

New years came and went without much fanfare.. I'm glad, Eric and I were perfectly happy to stay in, watch a movie, and do absolutely nothng all night. We went to bed not too far away from midnight actually. haha

Life is good.. Eric's new job is going well, and I'm looking for something part time that works with our schedule.

Teja is reading like such a pro. and Emma is seriously counting days until she too can go to school.. though she thinks she should be able to skip kindy and just go to grade 1 with Teja. haha

I'm trying to talk Eric into a puppy, but, well, we'll see. haha

Other then that, not much is going on.. Eric's Ma taught me how to make exploding boxes over christmas and now Kirstin and I are making a couple.. if they turn out, we're going to make a bunch to sell at craft shows next holiday season. I'm pretty excited about it. They are fun to make!

I'm not doing much knitting lately, a couple of hats, but thats pretty much it.. I've got some great yarn that is going to be a sweater for Emma I think, but I've yet to find a pattern I simply adore.

I need to get my sorry butt back to the gym, but, well.. I think everyone knows how that goes. haha

God what else? Not much really.. Another holiday the kid's didn't see their dad, and that struck me Christmas night and I was a bit glum about it. But I haven't heard anything from my lawyer or the courts saying he's filed anything, and I can't afford to keep trying until he shows he's more interested then before, so theres not much I can do. I don't even have a working phone number anymore for the girls to call him, and haven't since August. I don't know, I'm a bit out of energy for the situation at the moment, as I've tried, and nothings doing. If we could just talk about things, and agree we could just file with the courts ourselves, and not have any of this crap. But we can't.

oh, Teja's birthday is coming up, and she's going to be 6! Can you even believe it? I am NOT the mother of a 6 year old.. Six just seems so OLD! My how time flies!!! She wasted no time after christmas compiling a list for her birthday.. She'd like Skoot-a-loo (that my little pony thing on a skooter), and the movies Wall-e, and The Bee Movie. lol So, we'll see.. I had much grander ideas, but ya better get what the girl asks for!

She's so unbelievably smart though, like really.. She asked me the other day, If Santa and his elves make the toys, why all her presents has barcodes on them? hahaha ummmm.. someone needs to remember she's 5!!!! lol Aww well.. She's presh.

A few pics from Christmas coming up.. hopefully I'll update more often!

Teja's Christmas Concert (she's in the gold dress with the black - waving)

Eric and I - seriously defiant in the looking-at-the-camera skills

Teja and Emma with their Haul Christmas Morning

Happy Hallowe'en!

2008-10-31T09:25:00.000-07:00

Well, I went to the gym this morning..
20 minutes on the elliptical
20 minutes busting ass on the treadmill
and 15 minutes on the bike.

Thats right ladies and gents, I did 55 minutes of cardio today!!! I burned just over 500 calories! woohoo!

Now, I'm making salad for lunch with some chicken breast, and hoping to stay faaaaaar away from the girl's candy after trick or treating.

Pray for me. I need it. lol

With anyluck, I will get over this pateau I seem to be at. On good news though, I threw on some PJ pants last night that literally fell back down. theres something positive! haha

What a week!

2008-10-30T18:37:00.000-07:00

Yay the end of October.. *yawn*

I have had such a week this week..
Between the volunteer stuff at Teja's school, and trying to keep up going to the gym.. getting ready for hallowe'en, and grocery shopping, the house, the girl's sports, and everything else.. I haven't had time to think.

Monday went by without much of a thought actually, it was one year since I've been seperated from my ex. hm. I get a lot of "How do you feel about that" 's. My answer is always the same, that I hope he's happy.

Anyway.. yea.

Tomorrow is Hallowe'en, and we're all looking forward to going trick or treating! Even Eric I think. haha He's seeing everything in a bit of a new light now that theres little people to make it all more exciting.

The girl's had their first night of indoor soccor tonight and Teja scored two goals!! While Emma is the queen of stopping the ball like she was taught by her coach. hehe I even managed a video of Teja's first ever soccor goal - I'll probably put it on facebook sometime when i have the energy.

Anyway, just so you know, my birthday is in exactly 3 weeks. I don't want presents - I have everything I need.. however, feel free to write a song, or poem or ballad in my honour. lol Geeze, 27.. gaaaawd I'm getting old!

Gym news.

2008-10-28T15:02:00.000-07:00

Today I did 15 minutes on the bike, 10 minutes on the treadmill ( I was going to do more, but got this weird pain in my ankle) and 5 minutes on the elliptical.

All over, I think I only burned about 250 calories or something, but I did all the weights aswell, and really tried to do some things I don't normally do. (Like the bike)

The gym has a new contest starting November 1, if you record the miles you do between Nov 1 and Dec 24, and you hit either 100, 200 or 300 you get a t-shirt and you get in that "club".

It's just like a challenge thing they are doing, and I am debating whether or not I should go for the 100 one.

Thats 7 and a half weeks.. and I try to go 4 times a week.. so say 28 times.. So I would have to do 3.5 miles each time I go. Now, I can do that in about 15 minutes on the bike, but, I only get one mile in on the elliptical in 30 minutes! So, I'm figuring I can do it, if I make myself do at least 10 minutes of the bike everytime I go, plus either the treadmill or elliptical.

SOoooooooooo.. I don't know, but I might as well try. It can only help me.

Also, I've been trying to not dwell on it too much, but I think I have lost about 2 lbs finally (FINALLY!) I haven't really been worrying about it because I had my womanly time of the month, plus TWO thanksgivings, since I started going.. plus factor in I MUST be building some muscle since i started.. anyway I can't really see any difference, but Eric thinks he might. who knows. lol I guess we'll see in a few weeks.

Today's stuff.

2008-10-23T09:11:00.000-07:00

Stationary bike - 15 mniutes - 150 cals
Elliptical - 15 minutes 200 cals.

Plus I did all my weights today. So all the weights, 30 mins of cardio, and about 350 cals burned.

Now I am trying to keep the eatting in check, and drink a shit tonne more water for the day. ugh.

Gym Gym Gym.

2008-10-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

So, I joined the YMCA.

It's been fun, and I enjoy a bit of Mommy time when I go, I rock out to my music and sweat (ick.)

Since I seem to be putting nothing else in here, I thought I would keep track of how I do here, and maybe it will motivate me.. so if you see me slacking, kick my arse into gear!

I'm a bit tired today, with a bit of a stressful evening last night. Emma had a bit of a reaction to some new laundry soap, so I've been doing laundry like crazy trying to get it all re-washed for her. Back to the good old Tide.

However, that crisis is done, and so I dragged my ass to the gym this morning.

Heres what I accomplished:
Elliptical - 30 mins - 350 cals
Treadmill - 20 mins - 150 cals

Total Cardio time: 50 minutes
Total Calories burned: about 500

So, there we are. With any luck, the scale will start showing something for all of my hard work. Perhaps not shoving my face with crap will help. And the fact that my two emense thanksgivings are finished.

no name.

2008-10-13T18:15:00.001-07:00

My eyes shine, and I throw my head back and laugh.
I catch myself smiling about lingering thoughts.
I catch myself singing loudly to that song
I catch myself upside down with my head,
Hanging over the couch.
Just to remember what my tummy feels like when I sit up.

Big breathes of fresh crisp autumn air.
Wet grass between my toes.
Warm water on my shoulders
Fingers down my spine.
Basking on a sun drenched porch, and squinting
In the sun because my chin is in his hand and he’s going to kiss me.
There. Right there.
There’s that feeling in my tummy, like when you sit up
From being upside down on the couch.

Updates!

2008-10-10T15:42:00.000-07:00

Well, what's been going on? Not much really, I havent had a lot to write about, but I thought nows as good of a time as any, so here I go. Lol

Teja, has started Dance class once again, and at first she didn't like it, but now that they are doing more fun things, she's enjoying it and can't wait to go every week. She's started school again, and loves that aswell, she's reading really well, and loves showing off her little sister when we show up at school to volunteer with her class for computers. haha Her cousin Ezekiel is in her class this year, and her bff Katie, so she loves it, though has said she doesn't want to go to grade 1 next year, as she likes having days off, and in grade one you have to go every single day! haha oh the horror.

Emma is also growing, and she too is started gymnastics class at the end of the month.. thank goodness.. i am hopng she will stop attempting headstands on my couch now, because I have visions of her falling and cracking a skull on something, its horrifying really.

She's also learning how to ride a big girl bike with training wheels.. Eric and I had her out on it last weekend and everytime Eric went to help her turn around she would wave his hand away and say, "I will do it by myself!!!" No, I have NO idea who she takes after *looks at the ceiling*

All in all, both are happy little girls, full of vinegar and such! They have both grown into such little girls.. So adorable and bright! <3

Teja and Ezekiel are doing the Terry Fox run tomorrow!

2008-09-25T06:37:00.000-07:00

This is an especially wonderful thing for me.

For me, Terry Fox symbolizes sooo much, and they are doing this run tomorrow at school.

God knows, without the money that Terry Fox and his Run, and subsiquent fundraising in his name have raised, We may not have Ezekiel (my nephew) with us. So its very emotional for me to see my little girl, and her cousin, who are just 5 and 4 years old doing something to raise money for cancer research.

I'm going to go tomorrow so I can watch them!

If you would like to donate online, please send me an email (mchildyard @ hotmail . com), and I can send you the link and Teja's school, and full name so you can pledge for her.

FOUND!

2008-09-12T11:48:00.001-07:00

This is who is at my house right now. She was found running down the road with some contraption attached to her. We've called all the local shelters and authorities and no one has reported a missing dog, so we left our name and number, and said to call if someone did. No one has called.

She's adorable, and tiny, and really well behaved. She's sweet. Teja is calling her "Chaos" and Emma thinks her name is "Honey" LOL

Hats and Mittens, and stuff, oh my!

2008-09-08T11:12:00.000-07:00

this is how I spent my weekend! I got a pair of mittens for myself finished, and a hat for Emma!

I didn't have a pattern for the hat, so I winged it - turned out pretty cute though.

Well, Well, Well..

2008-09-04T07:04:00.001-07:00

So, okay, I suck at blogging everyday. I'm sorry. Next time I will do better. Promise!

So whats been going on? - not much actually.. Teja started back at school. She loves it, and Ezekiel starts next week, so that will make it all the more better for them.

I'm going to try today to go through the house and get rid of stuff, maybe have a yard sale saturday - I'm not quite sure yet.

Other then that, not much going on, same old, same old. I'm hoping to have another relaxing weekend with my hunk of burning love. lmao I can't believe I just typed that. hahaha

We might do some work on the bathroom.. but other then that, not much really.

Tis the season....

2008-08-27T19:38:00.000-07:00

for MITTENSSSSSSSS!

I started my first pair today.. I'll probably try to get at least 3 pairs done for each of the girls to last the winter through. yay! I love mittens.

My Inner Child - Day 2

2008-08-27T19:36:00.000-07:00

New Kids on the Block.

Enough said.

Blog Challenge::21 posts in 21 days about Your Inner Child.

2008-08-25T09:57:00.001-07:00

Hear ye, Hear ye.. lol

Okay, so this is post #1 about my inner Child.

I think this challenge is really awesome because, as adults, sometimes we forget to have fun, let loose and really let that inner child out.

Sooo.. *MY* inner child LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES.... Water balloons.

YEa, you heard it, water balloons are soo funny.

Single-Mom'n it.

2008-08-20T11:36:00.000-07:00

Recently, a debate on a message board I visit, frequently, spured some thoughts in my head. And we all know once I get thoughts in my head, they fester and turn and must at some point, come out.

Well, As I sat there, cross legged on the couch in the basement, with this really cool orangey, pinky, sort of melon-like yarn in my lap, with the startings of a blanket I am hoping will pass as good enough to give to one of my daughters for christmas, I was thinking about my experience as a single mom.

Its been 10 months since I have been a single mother. My children don't see their father, so I rarely get a "day off", (actually the last time I did was 2 months and a bit ago) and 100% of their day to day lives is governed by me. It is completely and totally 100% up to me and only me to make sure they are fed, clothed, behaving, clean, learning things on a daily basis, and above all else, feel they are the most important aspect of my world, and loved beyond all reason. This, while stressful, is also very liberating. Once you "got this", you feel like a million bucks, and that you can conquer the world.

I would have to say, that 10 months ago, I didn't think I would ever get to the point I am now. I am actually very at peace with my circumstances, and have some few very supportive, and amazing friends to thank for that. (Lisa, Heather, Julia, Brenda, Kirstin.. just to name a few) My kids are well adjusted, and I get compliments constantly about them in the last 10 months. I hear they are more relaxed, and calmer the majority of the time. While I don't think anyone means this as a dig or anything, I think its just a mere observation.

I think, overall, being happy and content with yourself, makes happy and content little people. I wasn't happy, and I certainly wasn't content for a very long time, and I think that once the initial shock was over, and acceptance came, that I became happy and content. Would I change things? The way they happened, sure I would. I had an extremely traumatic experience, and would have liked to completely skip that if I could have. I'm sure a lot of people would have liked that never to happen. However it did, and theres nothing we can do to change that now.

I wanted basically with this post to give a few tiny words of advice I think..

For single mothers, I wanted to say to do whatever you need to do to be happy. Accept your circumstances, most of us never ask for it, but it turns out this way, and we need to accept it, and be the best we can be. Being a single mother doesn't not equal a life of hostility and resentment. That's not healthy for you, or the children you care for. Accept it, Its not all that bad afterall (I'm a big believer in the - someone, somewhere has it MUCH worse than I), and be the best mother you can be. If your children's other parent is in the picture, no matter what has happened in the past, and what you feel towards that person, its probably better to just get to a point where you can both be at least civil to one another. Basically, do whatever you have to do to raise healthy, wonderful, good little people who will be an asset to the world when you finally turn them loose.

For people who know a newly single mother, I wanted to list some of the things that *really* helped me when I was going through it..
1. Stop in, Tell NSM (New single Mom) to get dressed, and do her hair because you're all going out for a walk. Sometimes, when Moms are trying to fit into a new routine and handle everything themself, they let themself slide, and we *really* need to be reminded we are important.. and that a happy mom = happy children.

2. Tell NSM you believe in her, and that she's making the right decision. Even if she doesn't seem to believe you.

3. Stop in, bring a new book for the kids, and read it to them, give NSM 15 minutes to do soemthing *she* really neeeds to get done, whether thats a quick shower, a load of washing, dishes, or a 15 minute power nap.

4. Let her know that it *will* get easier, with routine, and that she's a wonderful mother. (One of the moments in my early days that I still remember with tears, is the day my aunt came over unexpectidly. I wasn't even dressed, my dishes weren't done, but she told us all to get dressed, and we took the kids for a walk, and they chatted away in the wagon over timbits while we talked. ((she too has been a single mother)) At one point in time, she stopped, she looked at me, with tears in her eyes, and she said something to the effect of, "I know its not easy right now, but know that we love you, and we love your kids, and we BELIEVE in you. You're a wonderful mother, and I know you won't let these kids down.") It truely made a difference, the confidence factor, is huge.

5. Remind her, that someday, somewhere she's going to find someone who will treat her like the gorgeous princess she is, and that she doesn't have to settle until that happens.

and, lastly..
6. Bring over a box of tissues after the kids are in bed, and just let her cry if she needs to.

Maybe people will agree with me, maybe they won't.

My little girl, is such a girl

2008-08-19T19:49:00.001-07:00

Teja is all signed up for her first real, official Dance class.

It runs Sept to May, and she's sooo excited.
She wanted this very cute Dance costume bag we saw, but I suggested I could make her one instead, at first she didn't like the idea, but now she's opened up to it.. so we're going to see what sorts of yarn we can find. If we can't find some nice yummy yarn, I think we're going to look into a custom made sewed one.

She's so psyched, and I'm so glad she's got something that she's excited about. I can't wait to see her start in a few weeks time. <3

My beauties

2008-08-15T06:56:00.001-07:00

LOVE FOR MY DAUGHTERS
© Debra L. Cash

My beautiful daughters, I was blessed with two of you...
You will never know how proud I am of all the things you do.

You came into my world, so tiny and so small...
And I was in awe at the wonder of it all.

Then you placed your little hand in mine...
There was no denying, my heart was yours 'til the end of time.

I have watched you both through out the years, laugh, cry and grow...
And it is difficult to know, that someday I will have to let you go.

I just can't imagine, a day of my life without you...
Because you're a part of me and my love for you is true.

So just remember, no matter how old you are or where you may be...
There's someone who needs you and loves you and that someone is me!

I am..

2008-08-13T06:35:00.000-07:00

I stole this from Cat's signature on a message board that I go to.

I read it, and it struck me as awesome.

This says a lot, and I think it's completely true. There is something I have always said, and thats that I will never regret anything I have done in my life, because it has made me into who I am. And if I am happy with the person I have become, I can't regret the things that made me that way.

Lately, I have had some things on my mind that have sort of been bringing me down, but I think I am finally at peace with them. And that's good, I feel better.

Sometimes I still feel a bit bitter about the last year of my life, but I quickly realize if things had not happened this way, I would probably still be married, and probably still dealing with the same fights I had been for years, and neither of us would be happy. I definitly would not have Eric, and for him I am very thankful.

It's true that love hurts, but I don't think it should be hurting your self esteem, and your self worth, your values.. I think it should hurt when you say goodbye, and it should hurt when you just can't find the words, but it shouldn't hurt who you are.

...

2008-08-11T17:58:00.000-07:00

I have been tagged?!

2008-08-11T13:30:00.000-07:00

haha I've never done this before, so here I go. I hope I do it right.

The Nitty Gritty details:
It’s a random tag, and here are the rules!
1. Link to the person who ‘tagged’ you!
2. Post the rules on your blog!
3. List 6 random facts about yourself!
4. Tag 6 people at the end of your post!
5. Let each person know they have been tagged by commenting on their blog!
6. Let the tagger know the entry is posted on your blog!

1. I was tagged by Jocelyne, who is my man's momma. Visit her blog here
2. Post rules on blog - yep.
3. 6 random facts about myself:

a. I took fertility medicine to get pregnant with my first daughter, and until I was 20 weeks, the doctor warned me he thought it could be twins! The second time, I had no idea I was pregnant until almost 10ish weeks along.
b. I only sound like an idiot. I graduated everything with honours, even college, 6 months pregnant. yay me.
c. In an ideal world, I would have a gaggle of children, live in the forest and only have solar energy. I currently think 3 or 4 will do however, and before I'm 30.
d. I love fishing. Even if I'm not that good.
e. I went shoe shopping with the lead singer of the Wild Strawberries, in a concert at Barrie when I was 14ish.
f. I secretly would be in school forever if I could. I love school, I love learning, and I nevah want it to stop.

-Tag 6 people:
1) Erin
2) Hilary
3) Lisa
4) Pamela
5) Dara
6) Lorraine

Momma's getting crafty!

2008-08-08T17:29:00.000-07:00

Here's a sign/poster I made for the girls room last week.. I heart it.
I used some Scrapbooking Paper Eric's Mom gave me back in April, and some cut out cardboard letters that slightly sparkle. SO cute. And, how can you go wrong with Beatles lyrics?

Also, I added some butterfly goodness to the girl's room.

It's getting there - not quite done, but getting there.

Vote for Pedro.

2008-08-07T09:23:00.000-07:00

hahaha. perfection.

Nothings Better

2008-08-07T09:22:00.000-07:00

Well, not much.. Sitting back, in your INXS t-shirt, watching your gorgeous, healthy, incredibly happy children dancing to INXS on youtube. What could beat that? :) Well, It's up there anyway.

Phew! That was close!

2008-08-06T08:03:00.000-07:00

I'm knocking on wood, but my computer was working like hell, and I don't exactly know exactly what it was that i exactly did, but Its working again, and I'm greatful!

It was the weirdest thing, I could view SOMe websites, but not all websites, and most of the ones I wanted to view, I couldn't. Anyway, I got rid of the virus I had, and I now have a fully functional, *working*, webpage showing computer.. for now.. Please knock on some wood for me.

Glasses Shopping!

2008-08-04T14:32:00.000-07:00

True Story.

A while ago, I had been searching online for a cheap way to replace my vulgar, disgusting current glasses, that I never wear because they make me look horrible. haha That's the first time I came across Zenni Optical $ 8 Rx Eyeglasses.

They have tons of frames and lenses. I thought to myself while I was looking through them, "Candice, how can they give you cool looking glasses at such a cheap price?" But looking farther into it, I discovered that they don't use a middleman, and manufacturer the glasses themselves. That's cool, as it means I get stylish new frames from Zenni, on an awesome budget. Which, as a single Mom, we all know is the most important thing.

I was also a bit concerned about their stability, and how much I could trust them, because I had never heard of them before. But when I was looking into their prices, I also found that they keep prices down by spending really little on advertising, and that they had been on FOX News!

The only thing still stopping me from ordering, is the inability to try them on and look in the mirror, smile, pout, do all the random, weird things people do when they try on glasses. But, for $8 plus shipping, I may just have to give them a shot.

Well, its August.

2008-08-01T06:04:00.000-07:00

It truely has been an awesome summer, so far.

August brings getting ready to go back to school, and Teja's almost ready now, she just needs indoor shoes. She's excited as it looks like both Katie, AND Ezekiel will be in her class.

It's also August first, which means Eric and I's Official Anniversary. 5 months today since our very first date. However, we met just over 6 months ago. mwwwah! Love you baby. I have no idea what I did before I met this man, honestly.

In other news, Emma broke my camera yesterday, so I went to get a new one. I got a good deal, so I'm happy, and It's a really nice camera. I'm having fun playing with it.

Other then that, not much, the four of us are hopeful we're going to have a quiet weekend this weekend, as it's been a while since we have. No plans, hanging out, maybe some random around the house stuff, but nothing too daunting. Thank goodness.

I've decided to sign Teja up for Dance classes this year, and she's very excited. Thanks to my friend Kirsten, she's got everything she needs, pink dance slippers, pink tights and a pink suit, and a pink skirt. All from Kirsten's youngest who outgrew it for this year. It fits Teja perfectly, so I'm very excited I don't have to buy everything, and that pushed me over the edge and decided to sign her up. She's going to have a ball! Its once a week, for 1/2 an hour from Sept - May, with a big recital at the end.

Anyway, not TOO much to report. Just everyday stuff. I'm going to try to get the butterflies on the girl's wall today, if I do, I'll take some pictures and show you all.

Taking what comes in stride.

2008-07-30T13:33:00.000-07:00

I have a few words of wisdom for people. I don't know how wise, people think I am, but in my life, I've learned a few things so far, so here they are.

#1. Make yourself happy.
No one is going to do it for you. Not fully. If you're not happy do what you have to to make yourself that way. Believe me when I say, it is well worth whatever shit you have to wade through to get there.

#2. Stop worrying about what other people are doing.
It's YOUR life, and their life is theirs. You can make an impact, but ultimately, it is up to them to do what they need to do.

#3. Do NOT, I repeat do NOT try to change people.
You won't succeed, especially with men. I was once told, by a police officer none the less, that men are practically made up and who they are by the time they are 21. No matter how awesome of a person you are, how much you love them, or what you try to do, you're not going to change them. Spend your energy finding one worthy of you, instead of "fixing" the rest. Someone in this world is perfect for them, and if you need to change them, that person isn't you.

#4. Tell someone every single day how much they mean to you.
We all need to hear it, so just do it. Find someone every single day who makes you smile, and tell them how much you appriciate it.

#5. Never settle.
You're a wonderful person, and you deserve the best. Never stop chasing your dreams, never give up on yourself, and never settle for anything less then exactly what you want. It might suck sometimes, and it might make you cry, but seriously, don't live your life with the "what if's".

#6. Mistakes.
My mantra about mistakes is this, "The only true mistakes, are those we don't learn from." And its so true. We could all live our life thinking, What a waste of time, what a horrible mistake.. but you know what? If you learned something from it, it wasn't a mistake at all, it was a learning experience.

Random Ramblings.

2008-07-25T12:53:00.000-07:00

Well, first of all, my thoughts are with my Great-aunt Shirley and her family and friends this week. My great-Uncle Don passed away this week. He was a great guy, and I always loved the rare times I got to see him.

Which, leaves me with a fun weekend! As my cousin Kim has made the 6 hour hike to go to the funeral, and her two youngest are staying with me until Sunday. The girls are in heaven, with 2 more girls to play with! So in my house right now, I have 4 little girlies, 3, 5, 6, and 7. hehe Poor Eric tomorrow, extra little ones to follow us around, and GIRLS on top of that! haha oh he's a saint. xoxox

We had quite the weather this week, it sucked actually, as it rained heavily for a couple days, which caused my basement to leak. Thankfully, its just the the basement windows need dug out and those metal window wells, so we're doing that so we don't get more water in the basement.

The girls have just finished writing and illustrating a story about a haunted house. It's really cute.

I don't have much time, as you can imagine, but over all, We're having fun. 4 kids is totally doable, I've decided.

Can't get enough.

2008-07-23T18:31:00.000-07:00

I love this song. Awesome lyrics, great melody.. hits home for a lot of women. I can't get enough of it. <3

You'll have to hit stop on my music player at the bottom if you wanna take a listen.

I haven't posted in a Week! OMG!

2008-07-21T09:12:00.002-07:00

We've just been busy havin fun, doing what girls do. haha

Here's a few pictures of what we've been up to.. including swimming, the sprinkler, Grandma's kittens, and just hanging out. <3

Well, we've been out havin fun, living life, and doing things girls do. haha

For Eric's Mama. haha

2008-07-14T15:18:00.003-07:00

Okay, here's some random pictures of the house and what we've done lately.. Not much, but it counts. hahaha

We ripped up a garden and transplanted some plants to the front.. Thenks to some help from my Daddy, we now have a working hose too, and Eric now knows what a hosta is.

My new baby tree. Hoping this one lives. lol

the Girl's stomping grounds

The Girl's new Pink room!!!

What a busy weekend!

2008-07-14T07:31:00.000-07:00

Between Birthday Parties, Dinners, House Reno's and stuff, we had a very busy weekend!

But, we got a lot accomplished. Nevaya, celebrated turning ONE! and we had a nice dinner out.. We ripped out a garden, replanted some of the plants to the front garden, and put grass seed down.. Fixed the outside tap for a hose, and sufficiently got the kids into the sprinkler. lol

I'm tired just thinking about it. lol But we all had fun, have a bit of a tan, and we're relaxing today with the exception of the kiddie pool being in use this afternoon.

God this brings me back

2008-07-11T16:53:00.000-07:00

I just caught myself singing this while doing dishes, and thought of how far it takes me back. Childhood. haha

Man, I used to sing this song when I was like 11 or 12. LOL I wonder now what I would think if my 11 year old was belting this out? haha oh well..

What a week.

2008-07-09T07:52:00.001-07:00

Well this is gearing up to be quite the week.

I was without internet for a few days because rogers needed to bring me a new modem. Didn't really mind however, as I have a lot of things to get done and organised.

I have got the girls bedroom back in order, and most of the house aswell.. that feels better, I hate when things are amuck.

My would-be anniversary passed on Monday, and that was a tad weird. Though, on a positive note, I think I can say with accuracy that both my ex and I are happier now then we have been in a long time, and for that, we should both be thankful. It's just too bad we couldn't have done it in a less dramatic way. Though perhaps thats what it took for both of us to say enough was enough. Either way, I hope we are both happy with our lives, and with ourselves. No matter what happened, I want that for both of us.

The girls are good, trying to keep them busy while school is out, they've been swimming with Jaquie and Katie, and their room got redecorated, and we've been on walks and they play in the backyard all the time, however, I still hear the inevidable, "I'm boooooooored". haha oh well, They'll survive. Their millions of toys couldn't be a boredom breaker at all huh.. lol

My neice turns One this week! S we have her birthday party to go to, and then we're all caught up on birthday's for little kid's and don't have any more to go. Thank goodness - I am birthday'd out.

What else is going on? Not much really, day after day goes by.. We're good, Girls are healthy.. Emma went for her 3 year check up, and the doctor says she's healthy as an ox, just petite.

Anyway, I think thats all for now, and I'm caught up.

Thank goodness thats done!

2008-07-07T04:40:00.001-07:00

Well the girls have a shiny new PINK room.

What started out to be a "Lets throw some paint on the walls" turned out to be an overhaul of crappy work from previous owners. Thank god Eric knows what he's doing, or I'd have been lost.

Eitherway, they now have a bonafide pink room that I was terrfied would look like Pepto Bismol, but thankfully it dried a little darker.

Now I have to scrub the new floors (which are equally as gorgeous haha) and get all the furniture back into their room.

Pictures to come when thats done!

My Blankey

2008-07-03T08:35:00.001-07:00

I decided to do some white stripes, just in case I didn't have enough pink.. So this is how Its coming along.. I'm thinking a white border around the edges too.

Pretty Much freaking out.

2008-07-02T11:39:00.000-07:00

ugh! I just want to cry. I cannot get the dvd's of all my kids pictures to work. They won't load on my computer, they won't load on my brothers.. aaaack. If I've lost every single picture of my girls, I think I will literally cry. Probably for days.

Finally picked up my crochet hook again

2008-06-30T12:39:00.000-07:00

I finally picked up my crochet hook again today and started a pink baby blanket. (Sorry Joce, this isn't an announcement of any kind. haha) Its sooo soft and I think it will be really nice, I'll post pictures when i get a bit farther on it, I'm only 5 rows in. Its a nice shell stitch, and should be really comfy.

I'm making it out of some bulk yarn I had bought while it was on sale, so I am just hoping I have enough to finish it. I have 4 skiens, it should be enough.

Anyway, it feels good to be making something again.. After a long time away from the needles and hooks, my fingers are a bit sore, but they'll catch up. I can't wait for it to grow and be all comfy and ready for someones baby.

It's always good to have blankets on hand in case someone you know has a baby and you have a gift all ready for them, and in my opinion, nothing beats something homemade.

My Three year old!

2008-06-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

Emma had a great Party, and beat that pinata like no ones business. haha

Heres my big Three Year Old!

3 years ago today..

2008-06-27T16:44:00.000-07:00

Three years ago today, I was giving Teja a bath and reading her that story one more time.

Three years ago today, I was folding itty bitty baby clothes into a bag and triple checking I had everything we'd need.

Three years ago today, I was nervous as all get out.

Three years ago today, I was shaving my legs as best I could to avoid embarrassment.

Three years ago today, I was installing an infant car seat into our old Mercury Sable Wagon.

Three years ago today, I was getting Teja into bed and taking a nice, long relaxing shower to myself, because I knew I wouldn't get one for a while.

Three years ago today, I was rearranging baby lotions, shampoos, hats, mittens, and gowns in all the right places.

Three years ago today, I was still debating on whether or not the names I'd settled on were absolutely perfect. Emma and Noah.

Three years ago today, I was getting ready to head to the hospital and welcome my new baby into the world. I was as big as a house, and going in for my c-section at 6am the next morning.

Emma Margaret Audrey was born June 28th in the bright early morning, and howled to let the world know she was here.

She was gorgeous, healthy, and simply wonderful.

Happy 3rd Birthday, tomorrow, My sweet baby girl.

School's Out for Summer.

2008-06-25T10:29:00.000-07:00

Teja is at her last day of school today. She's so excited that she gets a cool day of fun at the end of the year.

Onto Senior kindergarten next year. My big girl.

I'm pretty excited to just get her book order and report card tonight. LOL

Why is it that June is always a crazy month?

2008-06-20T17:12:00.001-07:00

Our family always has SO much on the go in June. It's crazy!

I'd like to wish my nephew Ezekiel a belated very Happy 4th Birthday.

Tomorrow we're celebrating the marriage of my brother Jeremy to Jana, who wed late May in Jamaica, with a big BBQ. MMmm Can't wait for that. lol

Sunday, Teja has a birthday party to attend..

Next weekend, Emma turns 3, and my cousin gets married.

Then we have a wee break until July 10th, when my neice, Nevaya turns 2.

phew!

I *think* that's it.

Summer is almost here!!

2008-06-19T13:41:00.001-07:00

Teja has only 2 more days of school before summer vacation!

I can't believe my big girl is almost done her first year of school!!! Where does the time go?

I'm so proud of her, I got to take a look at her journal today, and I'm so impressed! I'm going to take pictures of the pages. I'm THAT crazy. lol

Emma, has discovered you're a really cool kid if you colour your fingernails with markers - a different colour on each nail. yea, cool dude that one. hehe

Eric comes home today!

2008-06-14T07:29:00.001-07:00

He should be getting off the bus any minute. <3

I'm so excited to see him later on today, and SOO proud of him for finishing his course, I just wanna squeeze him.

Love you baby!

Stream of Conscious Writing #1

2008-06-13T17:40:00.000-07:00

i like it. ice cream soda. soda? i never say soda. soda is pop like a gun. like a popping gun. pop pop with the little thing in the end. whats that thing is it cork, maybe rubber. pop. so hot. not even hot, just humid. its like sticky, and i;m wearing a hoodie. i was cold because i was sleeping in air conditioning and now i;m not and i'm hot and i could take it off but i';m writing this blasted thing and if i stop i wont get anywhere and my stream will be broken like a chain. your train, not chain. i thought it was chain of thought. i suppose it could be.. a chain that is. but its not, its a train. I like trains. even if they blow their whistle at 2 am and sound all scary. they are fun. trains are fun okay! I wonder how many people write okay, and not OK. OK to me just seems weird. okay. ok. I dont know, and i probably shouldnt care, but I do. sorry i cannot be your friend if you spell okay - ok. just kidding! I can. I will, I'm friendly, nice. I have friends. nice friends, fun friends, lots of friends. i love my friends. i am thirsty. maybe some water is a good idea. i think i have juice and milk too, yea i do, but no, water. with ice. i like ice, it makes everything just that much better, except mcdonalds pop, not soda, pop, which I ask for very little ice because I'm cheap and mcdonalds is cheap and i think they put way too much ice in there and try to cheat you out of pop. not that i need it, not that anyone needs it, but hey - don't come between a woman and her barq's - damn corproations and their ice cubes taking up room, and away frommy barq's. or nestea. i dont know how to spell nestea. thats fine though. just don't put ice in there.. like.. nes-ice-tea. just doesn't work. okay, I need water. bye.

Another Challenge!

2008-06-13T13:47:00.001-07:00

Starting Now, until the end of June.. post 12 times about a topic.

I am going to write 12 times, a Stream of Conscious writing.

Wiki defines this kind of as,

"Stream-of-consciousness writing is usually regarded as a special form of interior monologue and is characterized by associative (and at times--dissociative) leaps in syntax and punctuation that can make the prose difficult to follow, tracing a character's fragmentary thoughts and sensory feelings."

Basically, you write the first thing that comes to your mind, and keep writing as your thoughts change, and go with it. You don't worry about punctuation, or things like that, and just write. So, I'll be doing this, 12 times.. it should be interesting! haha

I used to love doing this in highschool English classes, so who knows, maybe I still will.

Cute.

2008-06-13T13:26:00.000-07:00

So whats up people?

2008-06-10T08:32:00.001-07:00

Not much here, storm after storm after storm.

I'm cleaning like a crazy woman, trying to make 5 days pass quickly, because then I see Eric!!!!!

The girls are cagey from the lack of going outside either because of extreme heat and humidity, or rain. So, I really can't wait to get them out for a good full afternoon of running around. I think Sunday, if I can talk everyone into it, we may have to take them to the conservation area and walk the trails. Maybe.. Who knows. I don't make plans anymore, because they never happen. LOL

anyway, really, not much happening here.. I must get off my ass and continue my cleaning spree. ho hum.

Run!

2008-06-06T17:32:00.000-07:00

Run.
Run faster, Go.
Tall Grass whips our legs.
Laughter hides being terrified.
Get up.
Come on, Get up.
It was just a Rock.
Come ON!
Running again.
A bit of a limp and
blood on my lip.
Are they coming?
Did they see us?
I don’t see them.
I can’t hear them either.
No way in hell we’d stop running.
Lets go home.
Through the park
And over the Bentley’s fence.
Mom’s hanging laundry.
What in god’s name?
You have blood on your lip,
And a bit of a limp.
I don’t want to know,
And if your father finds out,
I won’t lie.
Come on, we’ll get you cleaned up.
Yes and a slice of pie.
She messes my hair, and I know he’ll never know.

One Week.

2008-06-06T06:46:00.000-07:00

One week.
That's 8 sleeps.
And my ninga will be HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOME!

omg. so friggin excited.

Midwives. The Novel.

2008-06-03T20:31:00.000-07:00

I just finished reading Midwives.

I have few feelings on it yet.. At first, I thought it was a bit slow, but as i kept reading, I started to appreciate the pace of the book, and got more into it.

The content is gruesome at times, but valid, and not so bad really.

The basis of the story is of a midwife, who is at a home birth when the situation takes a horrible turn. The mother dies, and the midwife performs a c-section to save the baby still inside hers life. However traumatic that may have been for everyone involved, she is then charged, as the baby's father, and her young apprentice believe the woman was not indeed dead at the time of the undeniably brutal c-section.

The story is told from the midwife's daughters view point, and while fill of insight, puts a slight spin on things in a really intriguing way.

I would recommend reading this book. I ended up enjoying it, and actually, you'll learn a lot, about a variety of things while reading it, so go ahead!

Well, its June.

2008-06-02T20:26:00.000-07:00

Man, where does the time go? It's June already!

I can't sleep tonight, and when that happens, I always find it best to write. Most of the time, I have no idea what is going to come from my fingers, but it doesn't really matter, so long as something comes out, and my mind can rest.

hmm My kids. Teja and Emma, are like the most amazing little people I have ever known. They are smart as hell, they are fun, they're caring, loving, and funny! They amaze me constantly. Teja will be done school this month. Her first year is almost done, and I can't believe it. She's doing SO well. Her reading is awesome, and her self confidence has blossomed. Its really awesome.

This month brings a lot of things, as it seems every month does lately. God, where was I this time last year? Its hard to even remember, as SO much has changed. I've been separated for 7 months now.. going on 8. Can you even believe it?! 8 months it will be this month. That's ridiculous. Its been such a long time, but feels like the blink of an eye as well. The girls and I have really, and honestly come a long way. And that's not a dig to anyone, its merely an observation. The three of us do pretty darn well for ourselves.

There is this amazing strength and ability a person gets when they are put in the position to have to do so. I find it amazing. Abruptly finding myself a single parent to two little girls, and solely responsible for every factor of their lives kicked me into a gear that I don't know that I knew I had. The past months have been somewhat of an eye opening experience for me actually. Did you know that I have absolutely no problem mowing lawns, cutting down tree branches, and shovelling 3 feet of snow out of the drive way with a roast in the slow cooker? Yea, neither did I, but I can, and I do.

I've surprised myself too with my relationships with other people. I'm able to be the person I want to be. I help people, I'm happy, I'm bubbly again.. I'm ME. And even my new lovelife surprises the bejesus out of me at times. I was honestly, terrified of having to trust someone again. I didn't think I had it in me, and I didn't think that I could, but I do. Eric almost oozes this "it's okay to trust me" ooze that I eat up, and he's never steered me wrong, and hasn't let me down, and to be honest, I don't see it anytime soon. (is there some wood around?) And in turn, theres this amazing freedom I feel, that I can't even put into words. It amazes me daily that there really are men like him out there. Maybe, for whatever reason, we bring out good things in each other. Whatever it is, I appreciate it, that's for sure.

Oh man.. I don't even know what to type.. I think its time to try again for some sleep. My eyes are heavy, and I have a ton to do tomorrow, as Heather and Fais are coming for a visit this week!!!! *jumps around like a crazy woman* I'm so excited! I miss my Heather when she goes too long without dropping in!And I can't believe after what like, 12 years?! I'm finally meeting Fais! lol Talk about awkward! Oh well! haha Its all good, I can't even wait. And then NEXT week, with any luck, Eric's back home, from kicking ass in sudbury. Man! the next two weeks are gonna ROCK! lol

Things I find Beautiful #21

2008-05-31T09:17:00.001-07:00

Things I find Beautiful #20

2008-05-29T12:32:00.000-07:00

Sunny Days that aren't too hot.

The princesses and I have just got home from an awesome afternoon.

We went for a nice walk to the store, to pick up the last thing I needed for my ninga's birthday present to mail to him tomorrow. hmm.. lol.

And then, we spent a good amount of time at the park with some friends..

THEN, we walked to a different store and bought a new Lilac tree, cuz the other is dead, and some various other things.

But the weather is gorgeous, and I finally got some colour I think. Sun is nice and bright, and theres just a bit of a breeze that isn't letting it swelter.

I love this weather, it could stay like this ALL summer.

Things I find Beautiful #18 & 19

2008-05-27T16:18:00.001-07:00

You know what I find beautiful? (theres two in here somewhere)
Those moments when I smile to myself and think, "that's awesome." Sometimes, I'm probably way off, other times, I know I'm right on. Today was a huge day for me. Quite frankly, I was a mess. As the day drew on, things were okay, and my emotions lessened, I decided shopping was in order. (I swear my dear if you shake your head or chuckle to yourself, you're not gonna be a very happy man!!! hahaha jk)

I was looking at the racks at the local Winners, beside this lady, who, no word of a lie, had the most serious look on her face. Its probably how I looked for most of the day. I saw myself in her somehow..

Anyway, the song on the radio changed, and she started by a little toe tap, and then a little hip wiggle, a smile on her face, and then the chorus came and the poor woman started singing to herself until she remembered I was right beside her and looked horribly embarrassed.

I swear to god, I had the biggest smile on my face, and not because I found her amusing, but that i LOVE the fact that music has the ability to completely transform people. This woman, did not look like she was having a good day, at all, and this song, completely struck a chord in her and brought her to some place happy, if only for the length of the song, it amazes me, and delights me that music has the ability to do this.

This particular song always makes me wrinkle up my nose, and giggle a bit, but doesn't have any significance to me personally. However, I definitely have those songs... many many of them.

So, the two beautiful things in here can be either, Music and its ability to make people happy and my ability to see the small things and get great joy out of them, OR.. Music and its ability to make people happy, and shopping. take your pick. :P

And, for good measure, here is the song this lady was groovin to in Winners:

Things I find Beautiful #17

2008-05-26T07:10:00.000-07:00

Snow. I *love* a fresh snow.

Things I find Beautiful #16

2008-05-26T07:04:00.000-07:00

The Northern Lights

Things I find Beautiful #15

2008-05-23T09:09:00.001-07:00

Daughter #1. Featured here holding a snake. haha

She amazes me everyday with her young wisdom and brain power.

Things I find Beautiful #14

2008-05-21T07:58:00.000-07:00

Emma. Daughter #2.
She looks like her Momma, no wonder she's gorgeous. :P

Daughter #1 is for tomorrow.

Things I find Beautiful #13

2008-05-21T07:55:00.000-07:00

Pregnancy.

Things I find Beautiful #12

2008-05-17T13:23:00.000-07:00

Machu Picchu - Peru

On my list of must sees in my life time!

Things I find Beautiful #11

2008-05-15T06:42:00.000-07:00

Cumulus Clouds.

My wanna-be meterologist of a boyfriend had better be proud of me for this one. I actually searched out the name and everything. LOL

Cumulus Clouds are beautiful, they happen mostly because of thermal convection or frontal lifting, and they can grow to heights up to and above 39,000 feet.

They are, in my words, "the big fluffy ones" and.. they are beautiful.

Things I find Beautiful #10

2008-05-14T08:34:00.000-07:00

Autumn.

I love autumn after a hot summer, being out in the crisp air, the trees turning colours, no other season is as beautiful as Autumn to me.
Yes the others have their merits, but they just arent as pretty. hands down. :P

Things I find Beautiful #9

2008-05-13T17:35:00.000-07:00

French River.

Eric and I were here in April. this picture was taken standing on this awesome little bridge.. its very cool, and the view was breath taking.

This, is beauty.

Things I find Beautiful #8

2008-05-12T08:40:00.000-07:00

In My Life - the Beatles

One of my all time favourite songs.
This is beautiful to me.

Things I find Beautiful #7

2008-05-11T05:56:00.000-07:00

In honour of Mother's Day today, my thing I find beautiful is being a Mom.

There is nothing in my life that has taught me more, about life, about love, about myself, then being a mother. The day I found out I was going to have a baby, my life changed forever, and with every passing day, I'm convinved I become a better person.

I love my little people, and thank God all the time for giving me the chance to be a Momma.

Things I find Beautiful #6

2008-05-10T16:21:00.000-07:00

You.

Yea, you know who you are.
You're an amazing person, who I am so proud to know.

You light up my everyday, and make me smile when I don't feel like it.

You, are awesome.

Things I find Beautiful #5

2008-05-08T17:03:00.000-07:00

Okay, I'll admit it. I'm sappy.

There is something in the way an older couple who still loves each other so dearly looks at each other, and interacts that makes me want to cry.

When I see an old couple holding hands, or sharing a tender look across a room, or maybe just the man holding the door open for his lady, I just swell with sap. haha

I love it. Its amazing, Its beautiful, and its what I want for everyone, even me, 50 years from now.

Things I find Beautiful #4

2008-05-07T06:29:00.000-07:00

I had a hard time deciding on what I thought was beautiful today..

Sometimes life throws things at you, and you need to roll with them. I'm dealing with a lot of that right now.. and I always hated the stress and things that I encountered in my life, but with the help of some fresh opinions I've been subjected to lately, I've come to realize that those struggles, and strifes in life, are almost like badges of honour. Here is a woman I feel must have seen her fair share of struggles in their life, and experience on her face is not only beautiful to me, but I am full of admiration for her aswell.

Things I find Beautiful #3

2008-05-06T10:19:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to catch up here...

#3 of things I find beautiful... Lily of the Valley

Its simplistic shapes, its smell.. mmm..

Things I find Beautiful #2

2008-05-06T08:41:00.001-07:00

Poetry.

This is my favourite of Shakespears Sonnet's. #18

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

Things I find Beautiful #1

2008-05-05T15:28:00.000-07:00

Lightening.

There has been a Challenge set forth!

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25 Blogs in the month of May. I'm late.
My theme, is going to be Things I Find Beautiful, and since I'm horribly uncreative right now, AND late starting, I stole that off someone too. haha

Anyways! So stay tuned! For a ton of posts from me this month! yay!

Big Day!

2008-05-02T18:11:00.000-07:00

The princesses are going on their first train trip! They are so excited. BEYOND excited.

I can't wait to see their litle faces on the train, and then a fun filled day at various children's hot spots. lol They are going to be so tuckered out. But thankfully, I am sure they will love every minute of it. <3

Mommy however is sick, and doesn't feel like doing anything. Heres to cold medicine and a whole lot of hope! hehe

Wish us luck!

Just a Girl

2008-04-25T16:29:00.000-07:00

this is very raw, and uneditted. It'll probably change, or be deleted promptly. lol

Just a Girl

I don't want to be an adult today.
I don't want to put on a face, or a smile.
I'm not going to worry about clothes,
shoes, or my hair this morning.

I'm going to walk in the river bank
and feel the mud squish between my toes.
I'm going to wear my hair in pigtails,
and chase a bullfrog for most the afternoon.

I'm going to eat ice cream for breakfast,
and sing along with songs I don't know.
I'll lay in the grass and, take a little
time deciding on the animals floating by.

If you see me today, please don't ask
about my job, or my house, or the car.
Don't ask if I've seen Sally or Jim, or John.
I don't want to talk about that stuff today.

Instead, ask me to skip rope,
or challenge me to be the first one to the slide.
Take my hand and pull me into the bush,
to finally build the magical fort we've dreamed of.

Because today, I am not who you think I am.
I have freckles again, and embrace them.
Because today, I am me. I am free. I am fun.
Because today, I am just a girl.

It Returns!

2008-04-23T11:22:00.000-07:00

Unnamed.. Feel free to email me with suggestions haha Thanks to my own personal proofreader - Heather!
*ahem*

Where have you been my beloved affair?
You left me, disappeared one night,
when I was looking away.
My attention focused on something
someone other then you.
I've missed us.

You were my best friend,
my confidant, my longing.
You were the inspiration I found
in everything I saw.
The very reason I woke up content.
The hope I saw in the most dismal places.

You are the most forgiving
the most caring, understanding thing
I have ever come to know.
Your absence was noted, and tonight,
oh tonight, I am so glad you are home.

In my darkest moments
you were my light.
In the dead of winter
you were my sun.
During the screams in my head,
you were the calm I focused on.

So here I sit tonight, with you.
My mind racing, and the words
flowing so freely from me..
My life again complete,
with my pen, my paper,
and you, poetry.

5 Things about me

2008-04-23T10:42:00.000-07:00

Saw this, and thought it was fun.. so, why not.

5 things you cannot live without for under $10 each
1 Chap stick
2 Yarn
3 Hair elastics
4 Gum
5 Apples

5 fav movies
1 Dirty Dancing
2 Grease
3 Now & Then
4 Pretty Woman
5 Almost Famous

baby names you love
5 girls names: Ava, Ella, Elise, Lily, Gillian
5 boys names: Evan, Jack, Noah, I got nothing here. lol

5 songs you could listen to over and over
1 Hey there Delilah
2 Crazy Bitch
3 Soul Man
4 Mr. Jones
5 Big Yellow Taxi

5 people who influenced your life in a positive way
1 My Parents
2 My Grandma A.
3 Heather
4 Teja
5 Emma

5 items that stay in your purse all the time
1 wallet
2 cell phone
3 ipod
4 gum
5 garbage lol

5 moments you knew things changed forever
1 The morning I gave birth to my first daughter
2 The morning my ex walked out the front door, for the last time.
3 Putting the key in the door of my house for the first time
4 When I graduated college
5 When I got some of the best advice of my life.

5 obsessions you have right now
1 My kids
2 facebook
3 the phone
4 shopping
5 getting shit done.

5 places you would really like to go
1 British Columbia
2 England
3 Aussie
4 Fishing
5 to sleep. hahaha

This weather is amazing!

2008-04-22T13:16:00.000-07:00

The three of us ventured out today for the entire morning.. The wee ones got a fresh new spring hair cut, and we hit walmart up for some sandals, underwear (I'll revisit this later) sidewalk chalk, and flowers to plant.

We did good, and everyone is now sock-free and feeling fine. The sidewalk chalk, Is hopefully environmentally friendly because my drive way looks like it has been coloured in by care bears, and as soon as I get up the energy, my garden will see a big improvement, however, I'm only one person, and my ambition levels are dim today.

Last night I was lounging, and it felt wonderful, and my body wants to continue that, but, it can't! LOL Momma's got things to do! and by bed time too.

Now, the underwear. It seems Emma has finally decided that being diaper-free is as wonderful as I have been trying to tell her for a very long time! yesss! No more diapers! (at least until the family is added to.. down the road!) I can't even believe it - she seems to have just finally decided that yes, in fact she might like to use a potty and did it. I should have known my own mini-me wouldn't be forced into something and would have to do it on her own. I have only myself to blame!

And Teja, seems to be getting freckles! Who knew! She never had freckles before, but all of the sudden, they are popping up all over her nose and cheeks. its so cute - my sweet blonde baby. Her dark skinned and haired Mommy never had such cool things, like freckles. I'm kind of jealous. LOL They are tiny, but they are definitly coming out, and more and more each day! I'll have to try to get a picture.