Finally picked up my crochet hook again

I finally picked up my crochet hook again today and started a pink baby blanket. (Sorry Joce, this isn't an announcement of any kind. haha) Its sooo soft and I think it will be really nice, I'll post pictures when i get a bit farther on it, I'm only 5 rows in. Its a nice shell stitch, and should be really comfy.

I'm making it out of some bulk yarn I had bought while it was on sale, so I am just hoping I have enough to finish it. I have 4 skiens, it should be enough.

Anyway, it feels good to be making something again.. After a long time away from the needles and hooks, my fingers are a bit sore, but they'll catch up. I can't wait for it to grow and be all comfy and ready for someones baby.

It's always good to have blankets on hand in case someone you know has a baby and you have a gift all ready for them, and in my opinion, nothing beats something homemade.

My Three year old!

Emma had a great Party, and beat that pinata like no ones business. haha

Heres my big Three Year Old!

3 years ago today..

Three years ago today, I was giving Teja a bath and reading her that story one more time.

Three years ago today, I was folding itty bitty baby clothes into a bag and triple checking I had everything we'd need.

Three years ago today, I was nervous as all get out.

Three years ago today, I was shaving my legs as best I could to avoid embarrassment.

Three years ago today, I was installing an infant car seat into our old Mercury Sable Wagon.

Three years ago today, I was getting Teja into bed and taking a nice, long relaxing shower to myself, because I knew I wouldn't get one for a while.

Three years ago today, I was rearranging baby lotions, shampoos, hats, mittens, and gowns in all the right places.

Three years ago today, I was still debating on whether or not the names I'd settled on were absolutely perfect. Emma and Noah.

Three years ago today, I was getting ready to head to the hospital and welcome my new baby into the world. I was as big as a house, and going in for my c-section at 6am the next morning.

Emma Margaret Audrey was born June 28th in the bright early morning, and howled to let the world know she was here.

She was gorgeous, healthy, and simply wonderful.

Happy 3rd Birthday, tomorrow, My sweet baby girl.

School's Out for Summer.

Teja is at her last day of school today. She's so excited that she gets a cool day of fun at the end of the year.

Onto Senior kindergarten next year. My big girl.

I'm pretty excited to just get her book order and report card tonight. LOL

Why is it that June is always a crazy month?

Our family always has SO much on the go in June. It's crazy!

I'd like to wish my nephew Ezekiel a belated very Happy 4th Birthday.

Tomorrow we're celebrating the marriage of my brother Jeremy to Jana, who wed late May in Jamaica, with a big BBQ. MMmm Can't wait for that. lol

Sunday, Teja has a birthday party to attend..

Next weekend, Emma turns 3, and my cousin gets married.

Then we have a wee break until July 10th, when my neice, Nevaya turns 2.

phew!

I *think* that's it.

Summer is almost here!!

Teja has only 2 more days of school before summer vacation!

I can't believe my big girl is almost done her first year of school!!! Where does the time go?

I'm so proud of her, I got to take a look at her journal today, and I'm so impressed! I'm going to take pictures of the pages. I'm THAT crazy. lol

Emma, has discovered you're a really cool kid if you colour your fingernails with markers - a different colour on each nail. yea, cool dude that one. hehe

Eric comes home today!

He should be getting off the bus any minute. <3

I'm so excited to see him later on today, and SOO proud of him for finishing his course, I just wanna squeeze him.

Love you baby!

Stream of Conscious Writing #1

i like it. ice cream soda. soda? i never say soda. soda is pop like a gun. like a popping gun. pop pop with the little thing in the end. whats that thing is it cork, maybe rubber. pop. so hot. not even hot, just humid. its like sticky, and i;m wearing a hoodie. i was cold because i was sleeping in air conditioning and now i;m not and i'm hot and i could take it off but i';m writing this blasted thing and if i stop i wont get anywhere and my stream will be broken like a chain. your train, not chain. i thought it was chain of thought. i suppose it could be.. a chain that is. but its not, its a train. I like trains. even if they blow their whistle at 2 am and sound all scary. they are fun. trains are fun okay! I wonder how many people write okay, and not OK. OK to me just seems weird. okay. ok. I dont know, and i probably shouldnt care, but I do. sorry i cannot be your friend if you spell okay - ok. just kidding! I can. I will, I'm friendly, nice. I have friends. nice friends, fun friends, lots of friends. i love my friends. i am thirsty. maybe some water is a good idea. i think i have juice and milk too, yea i do, but no, water. with ice. i like ice, it makes everything just that much better, except mcdonalds pop, not soda, pop, which I ask for very little ice because I'm cheap and mcdonalds is cheap and i think they put way too much ice in there and try to cheat you out of pop. not that i need it, not that anyone needs it, but hey - don't come between a woman and her barq's - damn corproations and their ice cubes taking up room, and away frommy barq's. or nestea. i dont know how to spell nestea. thats fine though. just don't put ice in there.. like.. nes-ice-tea. just doesn't work. okay, I need water. bye.

Another Challenge!

Starting Now, until the end of June.. post 12 times about a topic.

I am going to write 12 times, a Stream of Conscious writing.

Wiki defines this kind of as,

"Stream-of-consciousness writing is usually regarded as a special form of interior monologue and is characterized by associative (and at times--dissociative) leaps in syntax and punctuation that can make the prose difficult to follow, tracing a character's fragmentary thoughts and sensory feelings."

Basically, you write the first thing that comes to your mind, and keep writing as your thoughts change, and go with it. You don't worry about punctuation, or things like that, and just write. So, I'll be doing this, 12 times.. it should be interesting! haha

I used to love doing this in highschool English classes, so who knows, maybe I still will.

Cute.

So whats up people?

Not much here, storm after storm after storm.

I'm cleaning like a crazy woman, trying to make 5 days pass quickly, because then I see Eric!!!!!

The girls are cagey from the lack of going outside either because of extreme heat and humidity, or rain. So, I really can't wait to get them out for a good full afternoon of running around. I think Sunday, if I can talk everyone into it, we may have to take them to the conservation area and walk the trails. Maybe.. Who knows. I don't make plans anymore, because they never happen. LOL

anyway, really, not much happening here.. I must get off my ass and continue my cleaning spree. ho hum.

Run!

Run.
Run faster, Go.
Tall Grass whips our legs.
Laughter hides being terrified.
Get up.
Come on, Get up.
It was just a Rock.
Come ON!
Running again.
A bit of a limp and
blood on my lip.
Are they coming?
Did they see us?
I don’t see them.
I can’t hear them either.
No way in hell we’d stop running.
Lets go home.
Through the park
And over the Bentley’s fence.
Mom’s hanging laundry.
What in god’s name?
You have blood on your lip,
And a bit of a limp.
I don’t want to know,
And if your father finds out,
I won’t lie.
Come on, we’ll get you cleaned up.
Yes and a slice of pie.
She messes my hair, and I know he’ll never know.

One Week.

One week.
That's 8 sleeps.
And my ninga will be HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOME!

omg. so friggin excited.

Midwives. The Novel.

I just finished reading Midwives.

I have few feelings on it yet.. At first, I thought it was a bit slow, but as i kept reading, I started to appreciate the pace of the book, and got more into it.

The content is gruesome at times, but valid, and not so bad really.

The basis of the story is of a midwife, who is at a home birth when the situation takes a horrible turn. The mother dies, and the midwife performs a c-section to save the baby still inside hers life. However traumatic that may have been for everyone involved, she is then charged, as the baby's father, and her young apprentice believe the woman was not indeed dead at the time of the undeniably brutal c-section.

The story is told from the midwife's daughters view point, and while fill of insight, puts a slight spin on things in a really intriguing way.

I would recommend reading this book. I ended up enjoying it, and actually, you'll learn a lot, about a variety of things while reading it, so go ahead!

Well, its June.

Man, where does the time go? It's June already!

I can't sleep tonight, and when that happens, I always find it best to write. Most of the time, I have no idea what is going to come from my fingers, but it doesn't really matter, so long as something comes out, and my mind can rest.

hmm My kids. Teja and Emma, are like the most amazing little people I have ever known. They are smart as hell, they are fun, they're caring, loving, and funny! They amaze me constantly. Teja will be done school this month. Her first year is almost done, and I can't believe it. She's doing SO well. Her reading is awesome, and her self confidence has blossomed. Its really awesome.

This month brings a lot of things, as it seems every month does lately. God, where was I this time last year? Its hard to even remember, as SO much has changed. I've been separated for 7 months now.. going on 8. Can you even believe it?! 8 months it will be this month. That's ridiculous. Its been such a long time, but feels like the blink of an eye as well. The girls and I have really, and honestly come a long way. And that's not a dig to anyone, its merely an observation. The three of us do pretty darn well for ourselves.

There is this amazing strength and ability a person gets when they are put in the position to have to do so. I find it amazing. Abruptly finding myself a single parent to two little girls, and solely responsible for every factor of their lives kicked me into a gear that I don't know that I knew I had. The past months have been somewhat of an eye opening experience for me actually. Did you know that I have absolutely no problem mowing lawns, cutting down tree branches, and shovelling 3 feet of snow out of the drive way with a roast in the slow cooker? Yea, neither did I, but I can, and I do.

I've surprised myself too with my relationships with other people. I'm able to be the person I want to be. I help people, I'm happy, I'm bubbly again.. I'm ME. And even my new lovelife surprises the bejesus out of me at times. I was honestly, terrified of having to trust someone again. I didn't think I had it in me, and I didn't think that I could, but I do. Eric almost oozes this "it's okay to trust me" ooze that I eat up, and he's never steered me wrong, and hasn't let me down, and to be honest, I don't see it anytime soon. (is there some wood around?) And in turn, theres this amazing freedom I feel, that I can't even put into words. It amazes me daily that there really are men like him out there. Maybe, for whatever reason, we bring out good things in each other. Whatever it is, I appreciate it, that's for sure.

Oh man.. I don't even know what to type.. I think its time to try again for some sleep. My eyes are heavy, and I have a ton to do tomorrow, as Heather and Fais are coming for a visit this week!!!! *jumps around like a crazy woman* I'm so excited! I miss my Heather when she goes too long without dropping in!And I can't believe after what like, 12 years?! I'm finally meeting Fais! lol Talk about awkward! Oh well! haha Its all good, I can't even wait. And then NEXT week, with any luck, Eric's back home, from kicking ass in sudbury. Man! the next two weeks are gonna ROCK! lol